The only reason I can openly admit this is because hardly anyone reads my blog................ok, here goes.............I am SO ready for these long, hot summer days to come to an end. I know, Floridians are supposed to love the heat. And I do, don't get me wrong. I love sitting on the beach or working in my garden, but it has gotten absolutely miserable. The walk from my house to the car leaves me a sweaty mess. I have started dreaming of snow or sometimes even fall leaves. I miss Autumn. We don't have that season down here. It goes straight from blistering heat to a freezing 69* in the blink of an eye. And yes, 69* is pretty cold. As soon as it drops below 70, the jackets come out in full force in the deep south. This is when I start missing New York. We only lived there for three years..........ten years ago, but it seems like a completely separate life in some ways. Just as sure as north Florida is my home..............so is upstate New York. I know all of the towns and could blend in(besides the accent...........it always gives me away) completely even now. The leaves are starting to turn up there. I can see it as clear as if I was looking out my window. The evenings are cooling off and there is no, under any circumstances.......110 degree days! Everyone has started looking for a good pair of snow boots and is getting excited about sledding. I miss it terribly. More every single year! And every year, Kirk and I promise each other that one way or another it will be our home again some day. I know he misses it too, just not with the same intensity that I do. For me, it is the place where we grew into each other. Kirk and I were married for four years before we moved to New York. We were so young when we got married. When we left for New York I was 21 with a 21 month old little girl. I was so scared to leave my hometown.................and my family. But we had our own family................just the three of us and we were determined we could make it. And we did............all by ourselves with a handful of new friends. Seeing snow for the first time was one of the most amazing things for me. Even after shoveling snow for years..................it never lost it's beauty for me. But like down here and being ready for a little cold....................up there, by April we were ready for a little heat. I'm not sure why all of this jumbled up information came rushing out of me or why the tears in my eyes never fail to come when I think of that place so far from here. I'm sure if I was there, I'd wish to be here. Just like since I'm here, all I can think of is there............................................... It must be the heat. 110 degree days are just not normal!
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